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Providencia Destino Consciencia

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 29, 2014, 8:38 PM

Si yo fuese otra persona y tu no fueras quien eres, te diría tantas cosas y te diría la verdad.

Providencia, mandato divino, las cosas suceden como deben suceder. Un amor roto y un amor que no pude sostener en mis manos quizá porque estaba tanto o más roto que yo misma,  todo esto mientras el liquido caliente y doloroso brotaba de mi alma y de mis ojos, eventualmente me llevó a un camino para recuperarme y poco a poco, al seguir avanzando, conseguí desarrollar un diferente tipo de amor, quizá uno mas justo, quizá uno donde soy mas responsable y un poco menos egoísta, a veces siento un balance inquietante y sereno respecto al lugar donde me encuentro. Lo agradezco.

Destino, poder sobrenatural inevitable e ineludible que guía la vida humana y la de cualquier ser. Quienquiera que seas y sea cual sea la forma decidas mostrarme (lo digo ya que sueles tomar tantas formas y guiar mi vida de distintas maneras: estando despierta, estando dormida, con eventos fortuitos que no lo son los cuales son agradables en ocasiones y desagradables en otras), agradezco tu interés y tus intervenciones en mi existencia. Siento que buscas mostrarme la realidad de las personas y de las cosas para protegerme y fortalecerme.

Consciencia, conocimiento de uno mismo y de lo que nos rodea en base a lo que uno Es. El destino y la providencia pueden transformarse con las decisiones que tomamos o que buscamos no tomar dejando que nuestras acciones parezcan accidentes. Soy feliz de ser amada primero por mi, lo que soy, y lo que no soy. Y no por los compromisos que pueda crear consciente o inconscientemente, accidentalmente con alguien amado por temor o inseguridad, por saber que le amo pero no se si el me ame, pudo ser mi destino, pero mis decisiones me alejaron de ese sendero. Y agradezco a esa parte que habita dentro de mi y que mantiene esta integridad, quiero tener uno, dos quizá tres hijos con la persona que amo y me ama, y continuar avanzando con lo que vendrá cuando venga. 

 If I was not myself and you were someone else I'd say so much to you and I would tell the truth

Providence: divine command, things happen as they should happen. A broken love and a love that I could not hold in my hands. Maybe because it was as much or even more broken than myself. All of this while the hot and painful liquid was pouring from my soul and from my eyes. Eventually I was led to a way to recover. And slowly I started to move forward. Eventually I developed a different kind of love. Maybe one more just. Perhaps one where I am more responsible and a little less selfish. Sometimes I feel a disturbing and peaceful balance and serenity about where I am. I appreciate it.

Destiny: inevitable and unavoidable supernatural power that guides human life and that of any being. Whoever you are and whatever shape you choose to show when you appear to me (I say this because you usually take many forms and guide my life in different ways: being awake, being asleep, even in fortuitous events that are not, which can be nice or unpleasant), I appreciate your interest and your gidance in my existence. I feel you want to show me the reality of people and things to protect and strengthen me.

Consciousness: knowledge of oneself and one's surroundings based on what one is. The fate and providence can change with the choices we make or with those we do not want to make letting our actions look like accidents. I am happy to be loved for me. For what I am and what I am not. And not for the commitments that can be created consciously or unconsciously by "accident" with someone I love. An accident guided by fear or insecurity. Knowing  that I love him but not knowing if he loves me. This could have been my fate. But my decisions moved me away from that path. And I thank that part that is within me and keeps this integrity. I wish to have one, two maybe three children with the person I love and loves me. And to continue moving forward with what will come when it comes.

  • Mood: Yearning
  • Listening to: Moon Licht
  • Reading: 10th book of Dresden files
  • Watching: Avatar the legend of Korra


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Jocelyn Santoyo Liahut
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By definition I'm complicated... but I'm fine with that, my felings are strange to me sometimes but they're mine.

I'm a dreamer, remember almost every dream I have and dream almost every night.

I love nature because I grow up surrounded by it.

I can get lost looking to the sky, I'm specially linked to wind.

I also love my spoiled pet Mei, a young female dog American Staffordshire Terrier.

As someone told me...

If you can't make it with one breath, then just breathe twice


When it rains you... 

6 deviants said Smile cause you love rain
5 deviants said Go out and feel it fall on your skin
3 deviants said Stay by the window and watch outside
2 deviants said Run for shelter
1 deviant said Go to sleep
No deviants said Get a bit angry for your ruided new clothes or hairstyle


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